THE NIGHT BEFORE CHEMO AND ALL THROUGH THE HOUSE......

......I have been running around like a loon trying to get ready. How do you get ready for this great unknown ?!?! Well the place is spotless, the freezer full of healthy meals and laundry done. I have packed a day bag with things to alleviate boredom( book, colouring, letter writing kit)and side effects ( ginger cordial, refreshing snacks , snuggly blanket) .The word I would use to describe the past few days is effervescent - the deep work and constellations continues to shift things in daily life.Loads of creative ideas, old emotions and memories rising and really felt. Bursts of tears, laughter,exhaustion and many things in between, all mixed in a crazy bubbly cocktail. Had an amazing weekend with my girls who continue to step boldly on this challenging path. Went swimming on Saturday, only a simple thing but Ive not been able to do much excersize since my surgery and it felt wonderful to stretch and move. I found I had a lot more breath in water than I do walking. I cant walk much distance/ up stairs without getting breathless now. Then we had sofa supper with Dr Who ! The Doctor is my new TV thing - Ive never been into anything like that before, but I can see it becomming a habit ! Surprising myself with new discoveries , I like this new open me. Yesterday went to Inverness and did a HUGE grocery shop and got some new odds and ends of clothes for the girls. We discovered an amazing little shop called Blend, its a tea merchants but also did gorgeous vegan food, with a hippie vibe thrown in. The weather here the last few days has blessed us too , clear cool sunshine bringing out the autumn colours all over the hillsides. The deer are rutting and bellowing in the night and the first aurora has been seen ( we missed it !!) So Im definately feeling the wheel turning and on the brink of a new chapter tonight. I am filled with grattiude for all your continued support - I feel really held in all this. Please send good vibes for gentlness and ease for my first chemo infusion tomorrow. Also please keep in touch with your news, my world has shrunk a little ( and Im guessing it will continue to do so). xxx